Anxious for What's to Come

Tomorrow is a really big day for the juniors! It's our first competition, baby! Can't wait! I really hope that we get first place... haha. Most guys at school are pumped for their games in basketball, football, soccer, whatever. But our first competition makes is what makes me pumped. Woo! Hahahaha, tomorrow is also Operation: Chibata Bread. Pretty freakin' excited for that, too. I really don't know what we're going to be doing... what's going to happen lies in the hands of our captians. HA.

Sunday, we have junior practice and we're going to be continuing with our WOD set. I believe we're learning the opener for WOD from Mike. The next day we'll learn closer from Danny Batimana, founder of Team Millennia. I'm excited to learn from him because his pieces are like totally full out. This day is also the day i will showcase my choreography. I'm kind of not happy with it. My friends said it looked alright, and people told me it was dope.... but it doesn't look like it flows together... Whatever, we'll just have to wait and see what they say about it. People would expect me to choreograph like.... all hard, or more chill hip hop... i dont know how to explain it... but my style is totally different. I'd say that my choregraphy is somewhat like Austin Fernandez... i like to put a lot of energy and i guess... attitude.. when i dance. I think it's just because of when i started with kaba modern dances... people thought that i ONLY did that...but..no. My style is way different. Anyway...

WISH US LUCK. WISH ME LUCK. GOOD NIGHT. :)

It's Been A While

It's been a long ass time for sure. Hahaha, i dont know why i haven't blogged in a while lately. I think it's because my whole family uses this computer, and i really don't want any of them snooping in on what's going on with me. But it's totally fine for other people to. Haha
So what's been going on lately....

First off, i feel like i'm losing someone who i've held really close to my heart. But growing closer to someone who is also very close to my heart. Both of these people mean the world to me, and i really don't want to lose either of them. I'm stuck right in the middle, as if i were to choose who i should stay close with. Sometimes it does feel like that, other times i'm just stupid and decide to hang out with one person. BUT UGH. The trio needs to get back again. I miss our happy days when we would go over to eat hotdogs in hamburger buns, swim, watch movies... those were the days. I still do things with on person, but the other person seems to be drifting farther and farther away from me. I started talking to her again yesterday and today to get things started again. I've got some good stuff planned for us to do. :)

Hmm.... Tm Juniors... we're doing fine...just fine. we can be better. we had a meeting about how separated and "clique-ish" we are.. and a bulb just flashed in our heads...like yeahh.. we're hella clique-ish. We really need to get closer together, build that trust, and learn to work as a team. I'm definitely speaking for myself too.. I STILL feel shy around some certain people..which is WHACK. Everyone on juniors is tight, no doubt about it. I just don't know how to talk to people i guess. All the juniors i'm close with.... like i dont know why i cant be like that with OTHER juniors too.. hahahha. In time..... everything will work out.
We're having our first competition this Saturday, and i'm stoked. FIRST PLACE BABY.
Also, we have officially started preparation for World of Dance, our huge main really kinda super important dance comp. Can't wait... BUCK PIECE... Practice makes perfect. :)
UGH TM got kicked of ABDC... f that show man...

So yeah.... i still dont know why i cant talk to people. haha. It always helps when people come talk to me...not trying to sound all snobby or whatever..but i can't bring myself to someone and just say.. HEY! Whats up... and get to know someone.. it's hard for me.. maybe i'm like SUPER anti social..hahaha maybe not..

Sooooooo... school sucks.. hate some kids there...but really easy. Uhmm I choreographed my first piece. Total big accomplishment for me (pat on the back). I'm showcasing it to the team next tuesday. I hope they like it.... Maybe they'll even let me teach a workshop... Freakin awesome... i want to teach it sooo bad!

Well...until next time.. hopefully i can actually talk about really stuff in here. Like emotions and feelings and shitt.... sounds gay..but helps a ton.

School Stress, Middle Children, Rock On

I haven't been blogging lately because i've just been way too lazy too. Plus, not a lot has happened from the last time i blogged until now.

It's finals week and I haven't done a thing to prepare for it... although i'm only worried about two of finals: English and Ancient History. There is so much to go over for history. Four chapters full of events, people, dates..everything you could think of. English.. 50 points grammar...easy...50 points literary terms....not so easy. 50 points To Kill a Mockingbird....oh crap. i still have to finish a pargraph and a whole journal on that stupid book...

Last night, i was talking with Kelsey and we were talking about how we feel left out of our family. And we found out why: We both have Middle Child Syndrome. It's legit. The middle child struggles to have their parents and other family member's attention. The oldest is the most appreciated, the youngest is the "baby" and is spoiled rotten, and then there's the middle child who's just.... there. This is totally true. I know my family loves me, of course, it's just sometimes i feel like i'm invisible and they don't appreciate all the things i do. I can dance, act, play music, all this artistic stuff they think is probably worthless. I could be wrong. The problem might just be me not being a good son. I could just be avoiding my parents.

So Thursday was the season 3 premiere of America's Best Dance Crew. I'm proud to say that Team Millennia is on the show!!! However, not many people were happy with TM's performance. Everyone was so excited that they were on, but expecting a lot from them. But they came out with a new theme... they were rockers. Don't get me wrong. I love TM, i just know that they had more to offer. I know it wasn't them, it probably had something to do with MTV wanting them to do a "rocker" theme. I really hope that they win this season's America's Best Dance Crew. I know they can do it.
Alexandra came over that night too! She be like my best friend. It was weird chilling on a school night... But whatevs it was fun. I didn't finish that one project...so i stayed home the next day. Plus i was like really sick, coughing and stuff. My head felt like it was gonna explode everything i coughed.

Well, i'm off to bed. TM Juniors is performing at Future Shock LA tomorrow. I'm really excited, wish me luck..

Good Night.

Out of It

So school today... just realized i need to do a whole crap load of studying for finals. Today was a good day at school actually.
I was supposed to get spacers today for my braces... but luckily, they postponed it because I had finals next week, and i'm supposed to get braces after a week of having spacers.
Then I had tm jr. practice. Everything was good, until i found out i was in the opener!! I didn't even know. That's what i get for missing the practice before. I was so lost: I didn't know where to start, didnt know what i was doing, didnt know formations, GRR. But i knew the choreography... just need to work on it a lot more. I was kinda upset that i didn't make HHI (the hip hop internationals dance team representing tm juniors) but i thought about it... i'm so not ready for it. I just started dancing, and i'm still really young. I'll have more years on juniors to come, and tm.
Off to go practice my parts in the set. I need it.

Why Do I Always Feel Sad

I know i'm not depressed or anything. But i haven't really been happy lately. I hope i don't sound completely emo or suicidal. I haven't had one of those days where everything that happens is amazing and makes me smile, in a long time. I am such a complainer. But i think i just need to be with my family and friends some more. I need to stop secluding myself from the world and to just jump into this beautiful world. I need to start living my life.... "Just live your life.. EH EH EH"
Hopefully, after i read this in a couple of weeks or months, i will have written a blog about how i love my life and how everything at that current moment is going perfect.
Untill tomorrow.. Good Night.

Starting Fresh

Well, this is my first entry of my blog. I decided to start a blog to express how I'm feeling obviously, but to help me feel better about myself. It's hard to explain... but it's a way for me to just Breakaway from the world.

Have you ever just really wanted to be someone's friend, but just couldn't talk to that specific person. That's how it is for me, but with every person. There's something about me, i could be the most anti social, autistic, quietest, and shyest person in the world, or i could be the life of the party, the person that makes everyone laugh. But when i'm around certain people, i can't be myself. My goal this year is to be more open and social. I think it's just a big transition for me. I'm around a bunch of new people who i'm still getting used to.

I just moved into Servite High School, an all boys school, full of aggressive, some disrespectful, and immature, young men of God. There are some guys who's heads i want to blow of with a bazooka, then there are some guys who are actually really cool. I'm still trying to make friends with the right people, although it's been around 4 and a half years of school.

I also just joined a hip hop dance team, Team Millennia Juniors. Woot Woot! Every single person on the team is awesome. There are some kids who i'm closer too, and some kids who i don't know enough about. But i truly desire to become very close with everybody. Vote for Team Millennia on America's Best Dance Crew. :D

That's it for now.. I'll try to write everyday, i doubt i'll remember, i hope i do.