School Stress, Middle Children, Rock On

I haven't been blogging lately because i've just been way too lazy too. Plus, not a lot has happened from the last time i blogged until now.

It's finals week and I haven't done a thing to prepare for it... although i'm only worried about two of finals: English and Ancient History. There is so much to go over for history. Four chapters full of events, people, dates..everything you could think of. English.. 50 points grammar...easy...50 points literary terms....not so easy. 50 points To Kill a Mockingbird....oh crap. i still have to finish a pargraph and a whole journal on that stupid book...

Last night, i was talking with Kelsey and we were talking about how we feel left out of our family. And we found out why: We both have Middle Child Syndrome. It's legit. The middle child struggles to have their parents and other family member's attention. The oldest is the most appreciated, the youngest is the "baby" and is spoiled rotten, and then there's the middle child who's just.... there. This is totally true. I know my family loves me, of course, it's just sometimes i feel like i'm invisible and they don't appreciate all the things i do. I can dance, act, play music, all this artistic stuff they think is probably worthless. I could be wrong. The problem might just be me not being a good son. I could just be avoiding my parents.

So Thursday was the season 3 premiere of America's Best Dance Crew. I'm proud to say that Team Millennia is on the show!!! However, not many people were happy with TM's performance. Everyone was so excited that they were on, but expecting a lot from them. But they came out with a new theme... they were rockers. Don't get me wrong. I love TM, i just know that they had more to offer. I know it wasn't them, it probably had something to do with MTV wanting them to do a "rocker" theme. I really hope that they win this season's America's Best Dance Crew. I know they can do it.
Alexandra came over that night too! She be like my best friend. It was weird chilling on a school night... But whatevs it was fun. I didn't finish that one project...so i stayed home the next day. Plus i was like really sick, coughing and stuff. My head felt like it was gonna explode everything i coughed.

Well, i'm off to bed. TM Juniors is performing at Future Shock LA tomorrow. I'm really excited, wish me luck..

Good Night.

Out of It

So school today... just realized i need to do a whole crap load of studying for finals. Today was a good day at school actually.
I was supposed to get spacers today for my braces... but luckily, they postponed it because I had finals next week, and i'm supposed to get braces after a week of having spacers.
Then I had tm jr. practice. Everything was good, until i found out i was in the opener!! I didn't even know. That's what i get for missing the practice before. I was so lost: I didn't know where to start, didnt know what i was doing, didnt know formations, GRR. But i knew the choreography... just need to work on it a lot more. I was kinda upset that i didn't make HHI (the hip hop internationals dance team representing tm juniors) but i thought about it... i'm so not ready for it. I just started dancing, and i'm still really young. I'll have more years on juniors to come, and tm.
Off to go practice my parts in the set. I need it.

Why Do I Always Feel Sad

I know i'm not depressed or anything. But i haven't really been happy lately. I hope i don't sound completely emo or suicidal. I haven't had one of those days where everything that happens is amazing and makes me smile, in a long time. I am such a complainer. But i think i just need to be with my family and friends some more. I need to stop secluding myself from the world and to just jump into this beautiful world. I need to start living my life.... "Just live your life.. EH EH EH"
Hopefully, after i read this in a couple of weeks or months, i will have written a blog about how i love my life and how everything at that current moment is going perfect.
Untill tomorrow.. Good Night.

Starting Fresh

Well, this is my first entry of my blog. I decided to start a blog to express how I'm feeling obviously, but to help me feel better about myself. It's hard to explain... but it's a way for me to just Breakaway from the world.

Have you ever just really wanted to be someone's friend, but just couldn't talk to that specific person. That's how it is for me, but with every person. There's something about me, i could be the most anti social, autistic, quietest, and shyest person in the world, or i could be the life of the party, the person that makes everyone laugh. But when i'm around certain people, i can't be myself. My goal this year is to be more open and social. I think it's just a big transition for me. I'm around a bunch of new people who i'm still getting used to.

I just moved into Servite High School, an all boys school, full of aggressive, some disrespectful, and immature, young men of God. There are some guys who's heads i want to blow of with a bazooka, then there are some guys who are actually really cool. I'm still trying to make friends with the right people, although it's been around 4 and a half years of school.

I also just joined a hip hop dance team, Team Millennia Juniors. Woot Woot! Every single person on the team is awesome. There are some kids who i'm closer too, and some kids who i don't know enough about. But i truly desire to become very close with everybody. Vote for Team Millennia on America's Best Dance Crew. :D

That's it for now.. I'll try to write everyday, i doubt i'll remember, i hope i do.